Diggin a deeper hole

Wow I really screwed things up for everyone, or as my friend likes to say "set myself up for disaster." Well it's only a matter of time before the storm hits and someones gonna end up hurt, maybe even myself. This is bad bad bad bad bad. Although the last couple of days have been some of the most awkward days ever, they were some of the best. This is bad bad bad bad. I don't know what to do. Well actually I know what I have to do, but I can't do it, and my normal "sit back and let things work themselves out " approach is not gonna work this time. I thought I could, but I'm not strong enough. I can't do this. How long can I wait? Put things off? Try to figure a way out of this? Can't get out of this hole I dug for myself. This is bad bad bad bad bad.